Minorities Unite!

I was so taken back when a classmate of mine looked at me and said she shared in my frustration. I was taken back because for the first time I felt a connection in how minority students feel.

We sat in class the professor made a comment about phony politicians. The comment is not what this is about. My classmate happens to be of Asian decent. When the "white" people in class hear the teachers comments several of them spoke up. They were apparently offended and thought the professor was insulting them... yet the professor is Caucasian as well.

My classmate caught me gaze, and she smiled  and said... "I know.. I know what you are thinking.... white people are so DEFENSIVE..." as if she had read my mind.

The reason why it took me by surprise was because I had never experience a sense of unity with other minority groups other than that of my own. Its really nice to see that we "brown" people aren't the only ones going through our classes and feeling annoyed every time something is thrown at the Caucasian population, only to hear them get all worked up while OTHERS are throwing their opinions out there.

If minorities are able to tolerate stereotypes made against us all the time... why is it that whites get all worked up about it? Could it be their unwillingness to accept that even their ethnic group has flaws??

A Beautiful Mess

If I could choose a phrase to describe my life lately it would be the title of this post....

Beautiful Mess.

Yes, I am in a Beautiful mess and I know that not a lot of people agree with the changes that are about to undergo, but there is nothing anyone can say or do to change my mind. It is also why A lot of people don't know.

I am just now realizing that I am probably gonna get the shorter end of the stick just because I am sacrificing so much. My biggest fear is that I will end up hurt. I just hope to learn to hope for the best but prepare for the worst.

There is so much chaos going about in my head and I wish I knew what to do with it all. I prayed for peace and an easy life and I just about went and made sure it wasnt so. I wont have peace because my heart is not at ease and its not easy because every aspects of this entire decision is complicated.

No one can understand and no one ever will. I just hope no one judges or thinks less of me. Even if people do think less of me, its because they really dont know who I am.

I will try my best to adap to all of the changes in my life and hope that This Changes soon. If only my heart understood and wasnt so fragile and weak, then all of this might work....