or better yet... how does one make it go away?
IS it really all about will power?
I feel like I'm not supposed to have these feelings anymore. its been too long...
I've done my best to shove them aside..... I've even thrown myself into a busy schedule so that I wont think of it... of him ... of you....and nothing works. (ok so working as much as i do is also because I need to save money for summer tuition but regardless...)
It's just so hard to and i feel like im not getting anywhere... like the more and more i try to not think about the matter the more i end up doing so and its getting to the point where i don't know what to do anymore.. cus continuing to ignore them is no longer possible.. and I can put up a front and lie to others but I've become immune to my own lies.
