Three Months...

Wow. I had not realized it had been this long since I have been on here.

I don't know why I stopped all this time. Words are my life. Im a talker.. but I guess I really haven't had the time to sit and blog. (not that I do now.. Im at work and this post might take all day to type.. lol)

I had an itch to log on a few days ago... and until now I am just making my way in here.
My life has been turned upside down and the only person solely resposible for this is ME. I take full blame and now.. almost 3 months later I am wondering why I chose to act upon such a drastic change.

These past three months I have wondered how and when I got to where i am today. Fact of the matter is that I simply realized that waiting was no longer an option. Waiting for something, for someone is easier said than done. I was simply tired of waiting for something that was never to come.. All those times I cried and begged GOD to release me from the spell I was under were finally thrown at me. And just like that I made the choice to help a bit.

Making the choice was the easy part. Putting that unrequited feeling i had for years away was the worst. I don't intend on sounding cocky or come off as the greatest woman on earth but I know what I am worth and I know what i deserve out of life. I knew that the waiting game was only being played by me alone with no signs of another player entering the game. i was just too blind, too stupid, or too of whatever it was to see it. I don't know where the courage came from, perhaps it was always there. It was just a matter of time.

Needless to say what is done is done. I have no intentions of regretting anything, even if I know that i probably someday will.

Feeling burnt out...ALREADY!?

Is this normal? I haven't even experienced a whole week of classes and work and I am already feeling like I wont be able to handle it. This is scary because I currently have one job and 15 hours of classes with minimal homework assignments since semester just started, but it is only going to get more hectic. Second job will start on sept 6th. NEXT WEEK! eek!


I wish people would stop calling with such dumb questions. I must have heard the "there is no such thing as a dumb question.." phrase 10 times in the past week. In my line of work... (job numero 1) there are such things as dumb questions. I feel for the elders who call and can't navigate through the online portals. Those people im glad to help out, unless of course they frustrated and taking it out on me. The yelling doesn't help.. all they make me do is want to hang up on them.. TEE HEE HEE. lol I must admit tough that it feels good to be as snobby as they are. I do it in a professional matter and yes.. at times i belittle them but ugh.. its so annoying when your only true intentions are to help and they just snap at you!

OMG Don't even get me started on parents who call and inquire about their son's or daughters info. These people are only making their kids handicap individuals. NEWS FLASH- they are adults now... have them call and figure out what classes to register for, Have them call about their financial aid status... and Have them know what placement test they need to take. The real world is NOT THAT scary. They will be okay. Have a little faith in them. This really urks me especially because there are students out there who fend for themselves and some are international students.. countries away from any parental unit and they are able to manage.

As far as my classes go.. I'm feeling a little blah! I don't specifically have a class that I can say I will enjoy this semester.. although I do have a tues-night class that I have yet to attend...so keeping my fingers crossed. I don't know what it is. I guess im still a little down about not being at my old university. Or maybe its just something I need to get used to.

Any who.. that is all . I am off. to answer more calls and later class!

Getting back on the saddle.

I can't recall how long its been since I posted anything. So this is my attempt to get back in to the blog world.

My lack of participation in the blog world has been to many changes my life encountered. Most people would argue and can sit down with me and tell me I like to complicate my life. These people might possibly be correct. I stopped blogging because through my blogs I vent, I sort through thoughts, and I heal. Unfortunately, under certain circumstance not all can be publicly shared. But I've had about enough silence.

Its been a roller coaster ride these past 7-8 months. things are seemed so easy. Although I am not regretting any of the choices that have led me to where I am today. I couldn't help but realize that I had to do something to forget everything. I wanted to get rid of this need to feel like I belonged to something, to someone. That is not the entire reason but yes a big part of it. My other reasons need not be known.

I can lay and think about the many ways this will all end. Sometimes I get a happy ending but most times I end up with a tragic and dramatic end.

We shall see, a day at a time shall reveal it all.