I have always - always, been bugged by two things. These two things have always been the reasons for my lack of confidence when it comes to everything mainly guys but you know...lol
1. My weight!
GRRRR.. lol.. mind you, I have never, EVER, been skinny. Alma (my twin) was always been the skinny one of the two. That ended once we hit high school. Shes exceeded my weight. Any who- long story short.. I was always known as the odd one. Wore glasses, very much a tom-boy, and to top it off chubby.
I have always been very active- ok.. compared to my twin sis it is being active lol muscle is what I carry on most of my legs. Thats pretty much the only thing i like about my body... -the fact that my legs are'nt flabby. I could do with out all the muscle I carry on my calves. HAte that... was teased in high school by boys on the track team. (They were just jealous lol) So I have these episodes where I totally feel committed to the whole excercise, diet ordeal and then for some reason or another I stray away.
So now I'm trying different things and excercise should come easy especially if D is there to help and encourage me. It always helps to have a workout buddy right?
2. My Acne!
Puberty sucks! MAJOR BUTT! This is probably the one thing that really hurts my self esteem. once I hit the "becoming a woman" mark in life, the acne has become a much hated issue for me. I have tried sooo many products ranging from toothpaste, Pro-activ, and an endless amount of facial cleansers too disappointing to discuss. It doesn't help that I pick at my face when ever I sense a pimple appearing. I just have to POP it! My mom is probably the one who has scold me the most saying that I will only add to the scars already on my face. I am guilty of knowing so and still do it.
I did however notice that when I had my nails done I hardly messed with my face and therefore my face wasn't so scarred. But spending $35 on a full set of nails was costing me a bit much, so after going an entire year without seeing my real nails, I gave it up. Now I only mess with my face when I am bored, or if i have one of those NASTY pimples that just HAS to go.. lol
I have also seen dermatologist who give me this mumbo-jumbo about my hormones and suggesting that I take a birth control pill and that might help clear up my face. This is not even an option, it goes completely against my religion. Mrs. M (a co-worker, not to mention an awesome friend) does have a point, it doesn't count if im not sexually active, but regardless I don't think I could take it.
Right now, I am trying what another co=worker suggested a while back. Rubbing Vitamin E on my face. I do this like 3 times a week and use Cetaphil (Sp?) daily and so far I'm liking it.
So there you go, the two things I hate with a passion in this world- My Acne and the 30 pounds I desperately wish to shed.
